Trying to figure out what I want to do with my life causes me anxiety. When I think of all the options and all the things that I don't have complete control of, I start to breathe harder. When I think of how I am aging and need to get on many of the things I want to accomplish, my stomach churns.
My mind races and I have to try and calm it. Sometimes, my mind becomes completely blank and I can't think of anything except what I am seeing around me.
I try and deal with all of this by doing something. This could be yoga, or more purposeful searching to figure out what I am good at, how my skills can transfer to another occupation, and finding jobs to apply to. With the boo, I try and keep things cool by not talking about things that cause drama - though this avoidance sometimes leads to bigger arguments when the topic finally does come up again.
I am getting a bit unsettled now just thinking of past scenarios with these two anxiety-causing situations and about my impeding move that still needs to take place before the end of three weeks, so that is all for my five minutes today.
You can take part in Stream of Consciousness Sunday or just see other people's posts. Rules are you write whatever comes to your head for five minutes, not worrying about punctuation or spelling mistakes.