I know that people say that things happen for a reason, but what if nothing good seems to be happening from what I did yesterday? Should I still be satisfied? I don't think so.
I just want to do things better than I did yesterday.
I'm not sure if I can fully do the things I desire to do in order to be a better person. Can people really change? Can people really become different than they have shown habits of doing?
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I'm not completely sure of that anymore.
Even after a few months of trying to reset my life, I'm not sure if I can completely succeed.
I am smiling more, I am hating less, but I don't know if I have become better at accepting criticism. I am still not critical of myself enough and I am still likely to get defensive when someone points out negative aspects of my character.
I am a better listener, but if I am not fully putting things I have heard and need to do to improve myself, am I really, truly listening? Or am I just hearing and then ignoring or disregarding the ideas of how to make my life and others' lives better?
Because I still have room for improvement and still need to improve from how I was yesterday, I'm not sure if I can worry less right now. I'm not sure if I can feel good anyway about some aspects of my life, instead I am fearful that I will never fully develop and change and reach my full potential.
I know this is a bit vague, but I am just at a point of confusion and frustration in my life and I needed this mini-rant/mind fart.