Even when I am not into the activity, I like to be able to excel at it at least a little bit.
I attribute this to a form of kakorrhaphiophobia - fear of failure.
It is good to not want to fail at something. My problem comes because sometimes, I don't want to begin an activity for fear of not doing it well. I don't want to look bad or be the one struggling unsuccessfully at anything.
|I guess I need help...|
But I missed out on them because I was afraid I might not do well.
Kainotophobia may have played a part, too.
Because, sometimes I become too content with how things are going and I don't want to upset the norm even though going against the norm may be better for my well-being. It's not that I completely fear change. I like change. Change is good. It's just that sometimes, I think I might be too afraid of what might happen to really make something happen... if that makes sense.