I am sorry to say, but I have given up on some of the dreams that I had as a younger person.
I know that some would say that I am still young and that there is still time, but is there? Is it still possible to do all the things I wanted to do in the way that I wanted to do them? Is there still a chance for me to leave some sort of legacy on the world?
I know that there have been many young adults who have come to me after their high school times to tell me that I had an influence on them while they were in my classes. That is great, it makes me feel wonderful.
But I wanted to be more than just a teacher. I want to be more than just a coach, too.
These things are just small parts of all that I wanted to do in my life.
I don't even want to put all of my past goals/desires into words because it is really quite disappointing that I have not completed most of them. I know, though, that some of their lack of completion is all on me.
I sometimes get in my own way and that is a huge detriment to my progress.
And that is why I am working to change my mindset this year.
Maybe there is still some hope for some of my dreams to come true. I blame Disney and that damn "the dreams that you wish will come true" BS for my high hopes. I guess they made me believe that I didn't need to put in work to make them happen. Some great man would come a long and everything I ever wanted would come true.
Unfortunately, I am independent-minded and just dreaming doesn't work. At all.
Topic for today's Stream of Consciousness Sunday prompt: Have you reached the prime of your life? What do you want to be your legacy?
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